Tiny Middle Finger okay


i wish there was a non-assholeish way to say “our friendship has run its course, you make me uncomfortable with your feelings and a lot of shit you do pisses me off bye”

(Source: winter-soldier, via julee3ah)


 my boyfriend found this in a book in goodwill. it says:

"singing is sweet; but be sure of this
lips only sing when they cannot kiss
many people say that we wouldn’t last
days keep getting longer and time is flying fast. we have been together for a good time. if it wasn’t for you i don’t think i could rhyme.”


i want to throw up when i think about the past and all the people that i used to be friends with and all the wrong things ive done and all the things ive said that i shouldnt have

(via comely-gal)


Lol elise

The hardest thing about depression is that it is addictive. It begins to feel uncomfortable not to be depressed. You feel guilty for feeling happy.

I have a theory. These are just my thoughts, so don’t get offended or anything. 

I am a highly scientific person, but I am also very spiritual. By ‘spiritual’, I do not mean religious. I identify as an atheist and I do not follow any religion. I think spirituality is a broader concept, not confined by the rules or boundaries of specific religious beliefs, and also not ignoring scientific ideas. I think spirituality is a way of thinking that goes beyond science. I believe in the existence of souls. I believe the identity is the personification of the soul, or the ‘spirit’, or whatever you want to call it. Your soul takes a lifetime to fully develop and when it has, and when your body is physically unable to carry it, it moves on. I also believe that the identity/soul/spirit works together with the brain, but is a separate thing in itself, because it is not tangible. Mental disorders affect the spirit and vice versa.

In that sense, when something so traumatic and terrible and violent happens to someone early on in their life, early on in the development of the soul, and the conscious mind can’t handle it, it affects that person’s spirit. It literally fractures their identity, creating multiple souls that share one body and have different states of consciousness. Many scientists do not understand the innerworkings of dissociative identity disorder. Some believe it doesn’t even exist (whatever the fuck that means), and there’s a huge social stigma around it simply because PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT. We can look at it clinically, scientifically, as much as we want. We can do so many tests and scans and shit to try to figure out exactly how it happens and how it works and what the process is of creating alters, etc., but I don’t think people will find much of an answer in this approach. I believe that DID is a separation of the spirit that affects the mind, rather than a disorder of the mind that separates the identity. Once again, these are just my thoughts, I am not a professional, but these are just some things to consider.

A separation of the mind rather than the spirit, I think, is schizophrenia. Schizo- means ‘split’ and -phrenia means ‘mind’, which leads many people to confuse it with DID, when they are in fact two COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THINGS (and yes, that means one person can have both of these two disorders). But “split mind” does make sense to describe schizophrenia. Each part of the brain has a specific function and purpose, and when these parts do not work together correctly, it is schizophrenia. Somewhere between the parts of the brain that control the senses and between the part of the brain that controls thought processing and emotions and everything, something is wrong. The parts of the brain are, in a way, separated, in the sense that they don’t work together properly. With DID, the parts of the brain work together better than they do with schizophrenia, and it affects different parts of the brain. But the main problem with DID is the separation of identity from the body. 

I’m rambling at this point, but yeah. Please don’t take offense from this, and feel free to message me with your thoughts on this (as long as you don’t criticize me for my way of thinking, I’m willing to hear anything).